ANDY

WELL HITO:

I’m sitting here again, having a beer, and thinking about you.  It’s raining and if I didn’t know better, I’d say you had something to do with it.  The sunflowers have surpassed 40” and have gone a really bright yellow.  When the wind blows it’s almost as if they were waving goodbye.  I guess it’s just the way they’re  made. 

I got some big cukes (cucumbers) outta the garden and a couple of cantaloupes.  Damn worms got to one of them, but there’s more growing.  It continues to drizzle, which actually surprises me cause most small storms, this time of year, just move on.  I still say it’s got nothing to do with you, but even so we all appreciate it for the plants’ sake.  I suppose now I will have to mow the damn yard, but it will be worth it just to see it alive. 

Well. Bubba, it’s still drizzling so I got to watch out for that pot of gold.  Could be appearing any time now if you had anything to do with it, but I think I would have already seen it by now.  It’s all right, I got no use for all that gold anyway.  The only things worth anything in this life are the people that give a damn about you anyway.  The rest of it is just shit we collect hoping somebody will like it so they’ll be happy for a while.  I still don’t believe all that gangsta crap you told me, but I guess sometimes you gotta make up shit to get someone’s attention.  Well, either way, the Chi or aura that makes up the universe and beyond knows where we are all coming from.  Anyway, I hope we don’t influence it as much as we think we do, else we would’a been extinct long before now.

Jonas just called wanting to know your favorite song, and I told him your satchel was so full of good songs, “it’s hard to tell which one”.  If you get a moment away from heaven maybe you could send a sign.  Yeah, right!

It’s getting harder to talk with ya cause I know if you was listening you wouldn’t be happy about what’s going on (all the crying & shit).  Don’t pay no nevermind to that.  It’s just us thinking that there ain’t no ever after, and wishing if there was you’d be somewhere watching us cry over you.  I don’t buy all that cause that’d make you sad & I’m hoping you don’t have to be sad anymore.  Anyway, we’ll be here trying to comfort each other (hopefully) and if not, I hope we’ll take some knowledge forward with us about the way things happen so we can, at least, warn those of us who go down the same road what we’re doing to those who are left.  I gotta cut this short cause it’s hittin’ too close to home.  You know what I mean?  But in case you don’t – of course you don’t!  HERE’S TO YOU, MI COMPADRE. !!May GOD have mercy& bless those you’ve left behind!! I’m sure it wasn’t intentional, but you did leave us behind and we’re going to miss all that damned whining. 

God only knows what you’d done with your money - that never lasted long.  You burnt it with gifts and such, but that’s what money is for.  “Anything good is better shared!”  I don’t remember when I made that up, but I was a lot younger.  Still Missing You!  Asshole! 

June 14, 2011                                                                         !!!Love Andy!!!