AUNTIE VALENTINA

My baby Leo,

I miss you…But then I still don’t believe it.  So I have mixed emotions. I think maybe it’s easier for me not to believe that you are gone. But when I think about it and try to face reality,  I get sick to my stomach, my heart aches and I cry.

I love you even though I didn’t say it OFTEN ENOUGH….hell, I didn’t even talk to you often enough….I’m sorry.

Auntie Valentina

If I knew

If I knew it would be the last time
that I'd see you fall asleep
I would tuck you in more tightly
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.

If I knew it would be the last time
that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and a kiss
and call you back for one more..

 If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word
so I could play them back day after day..

 if I knew it would be the last time
I could spare any extra minute,
to stop and say" I love you"
instead of assuming you would know I do..

If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day
well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
so I can let just this one slip away..

For surely there's always tomorrow,
to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance
to make everything just right..

There will always be another day to say
"I love you", and certainly there's another chance
to say our "anything I can do"?

But just in case I might be wrong
and today is all I get
I'd like to say how much I love you
and I hope we never forget..

Tomorrow is not promised to anyone
young or old alike