BRIAN ROSE

Well, now you can sit down next to the old man and have a few beers and let him tell you off for being there next to him.. Hell, he just might put you to work right out the gate, hahaha, just like old times, lololol fuck ese cant believe you'r gone, amor shadow. Now you can be happy with no worries and no pain. Finally you're home. Take the gloves off and relax, fucker. GOD BLESS YOU AND KEEP YOU SAFE


Well, motherfucker, you finilly met ur maker it took you alot longer then wat u expected. im sorry you diddnt have more time 2 be the father you alwayz wanted 2 b 4 Teyana i knw how much you loved her from da frist day she was born sorry you guyz diddnt have more time to really get to knw one another but at least you were on the road to having what you alwayz wanted and that was to b a part of her life..so wat da fuck Leo you motherfucker man i can’t believe you got ur ass handed to you? You always came out on top what da fuck u sleepen in you old age or what? Dam cant believe ur gone you were like the brother i never had ill miss u alot you taught me alot n showed me the ropes when we kidz growing up n i thank you 4 that....you will always have a place in my heart rite besie Johnny. I could go on and on 4 hours but i won’t just i love you LITTLE LEO ANTHONY GONZALES.......R.I.P brother alwayz gone but never fuckin forgotten..Goodbye 4 now see you when I see you

JARED BRADSHAW

You were loved more than you could ever know; the family is lost without you. We all miss you, and wish this was all a bad dream, but you're in a better place without pain or heartbreak, and for that I am happy for you, Cousin!! But I wish you were still here!!

******Jared is Patricia's Beautiful Oldest Son, and Leo's first cousin, who has a HEART OF GOLD. The CD/DVD you and your dad made for us is awesome, sweet boy. Thank you from all of us. Love & kisses, Auntie Peg

CAROLINE SEIDEL

I can't believe I'm just reading all this :( I had no idea. Leo, we all loved you, and I am very thankful to have met you, and to you for being here for me when I needed someone. You always had a way of making me smile and look at things from a different side. You are so missed. It hurts to know you're gone, but at least I know you're safe now and not hurting any longer. I'll always remember you, my friend.

DESIREE SALGADO

I love you, Friend, and I enjoyed your company when you would call at 2:00 in the morning ..... I miss you

BILL BURKE

Badmotherfucker, that's how we felt about you. Dammit, Ijust talked to you for the first time in years, but that's what's up, he works in weird ways don't you know. Well, folks, we lost a good friend, mentor, comrade and warrior. All I can think is he now can at least have a better shot at looking after us all. He's always been like an angel looking after their friends. RIP, my friend, we got this. Don't even trip. We love you and will miss you very much, fucken hardhead. Later, BURKE DE BURQUE

MARIA JANNATTE VELEZ-RAMIREZ

Leo, I can't believe you're gone... Christine, I'm sorry for your loss. Speaking to Leo constantly brought a smile on my face. We talked so much that day. I will always remember our last conversation which ended with a smile on his face and his wicked laugh. If you need anything, please call me. 772.633.9970.


Rest in peace, My love, My friend. Now ur in heaven. u will be missed.

CHRISTOPHER BENAVIDEZ

Well, yes, it has been a week and, bro, I still can't believe you're gone Leo. You are a HOMIE thru and thru. Christine I'm sorry for your loss and that I never got to meet you, God bless

ALLAN ESTRADA

My gosh, we will always miss you, Primo. We love you with all our hearts !!!:(.....

ELVIA WILSON

Damn, Babe, I miss you so much. The tears continue to fall on my cheeks. Bedtime isn't the same without hearing your voice. See you in my dreams, Sweet Leo. Love always, LV

Leo, I love you. Always have. Always will. I miss you more then words can say. I wish we would've had time together, but I didnt make it in time. I know you are with me, always wearing your wings

CHRISTA REED

Leo you were a great friend I was truly blessed to have known you. God Bless, your family will be in my prayers

CHRISTA REED

Leo you were a great friend I was truly blessed to have known you. God Bless, your family will be in my prayers

CAROLINE SEIDEL

If tears could build a stairway And memories were a lane We would walk right up to Heaven And bring you back again

No farewell words were spoken No time to say goodbye You were gone before we knew it And only God knows why

Our hearts still ache in sadness And secret tears still flow What it meant to lose you No one will ever know

But now we know you want us To mourn for you no more To remember all the happy times Life still has much in store

Since you'll never be forgotten We pledge to you today A hallowed place within our hearts Is where you'll always stay

Miss you so much, and wish I could have gotten the chance to say goodbye and tell you how much of a great man, friend, protector, father, and person you were. Thanks for being there for me when I needed you, and I'm thanking you now in advance for watching over all of us from way up there. I know you'll be keeping a protective wing over us all.

caroline

GREAT MEMORIES - AUNT BERNADETTE

CHRIS:  I KNOW AT THIS TIME NO WORDS CAN STOP THE HURT AND ACHE THAT YOU ARE FEELING BUT I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT WE ARE HURTING WITH YOU.   IT’S SO SAD WHEN IT TAKES TRAGEDY TO MAKE US THINK BACK ABOUT THE WONDERFUL TIMES WE HAVE SHARED.   WE NEED TO REMEMBER THAT TIME IS NOT PROMISED TO ANY OF US.   YOU ARE ON MY MIND AND IN MY PRAYERS AND YOU ARE NOT ALONE.
I HAVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT LEO AND WHEN HE WAS LITTLE.  I REMEMBER WHEN HE USED TO TAKE OFF HIS DIAPER AND RUN AROUND NAKED AS A JAY BIRD AND EVERYONE WOULD START TO CHASE HIM DOWN THE HALL.   HE WOULD BE LAUGHING AND ROUNDING THE CORNER AS FAST AS HIS LITTLE LEGS COULD CARRY HIM.  THEN ONE DAY HIS AUNTIE VERA TOLD HIM IF HE DIDN’T PUT HIS DIAPER BACK ON, SHE WAS GOING TO TIE A BIG RED BOW ON HIS “YOU KNOW.”   WELL, THAT DIDN’T STOP HIM…………….HE STOPPED SO SHE COULD TIE THE RIBBON ON AND THEN WENT RUNNING ALL AROUND SO WE COULD SEE HIS BIG RED BOW FLYING IN THE WIND AS HE RAN!!  WHAT A MEMORY; AND I CAN STILL SEE HIM LAUGHING AND SCREAMING.  I HOPE THIS WILL BRING A SMILE TO YOUR FACE AND LOTS OF OTHER WARM MEMORIES WILL COME TO SURFACE TO WARM YOUR HEART.  WE LOVE AND MISS YOU LITTLE LEO.  

 Bernadette Cortez

FROM OUR BELOVED DOROTHY

Christine

I cannot imagine the pain you are experiencing right now, but know that I am thinking of you and praying that you will find some peace and comfort.

Please do not focus on any guilt or regret. You loved Leo as only his mother could. God gave him to you and no one else. Believe that Leo knew how much you loved him and he knew that you did your very best to be the mother he needed. We all make mistakes – but that is part of being human in this world. Because of your family and friends, Leo’s life was filled with people who loved him and cared about him, no matter what. Unconditional love is very hard to give, and only Jesus is fully capable of this, but we must continue to try. I know that you tried to love Leo unconditionally as did all of the family. Know that he felt that love and was protected by it during his entire life. We can’t protect our children from all pain and disappointment no matter how hard we try. Chris, let God and your family and friends love you and help you get through this. We are both blessed to have family and friends that love us and are there for us. Don’t push them away, but let them be there for you now.

Psalm 91
Those who live in the shelter of the Most High will find rest in the shadow of the Almighty.

Auntie Janet

My Dearest Leo

There are no words that give justice to my feelings. Where do you find the words to explain the sadness. The dictionary doesn't have them, nor does the thesarus....might it be in another language. I find some comfort in the fact that there are no tears in Heaven. No more will your body ache, nor will your heart be sad. As we watch your mom cry till she runs out of tears, just long enough for the well to fill up again, and the tears flow again, the body is drained of strength, for the anguish is too deep. Though it should, it matters not that you are in Heaven, how selfish we are... we want you here.

DEAR MOM

Dearest Christine….

I can’t wait till you learn to dance again….. It seems we have all forgotten how to dance. Let this be a gift to all of us from Leo Antonio….let us start dancing again…

I love you. Janet

TO SWEET SWEET LEO

Lydia Mathews to me

OMG Leo! You were a wonderful friend and you will be missed till the day I die, brother! I had no idea, just knew I hadn't talked to you in a few weeks, so was
coming to your page to check up on you. Now I guess you'll be checking up on me
in my dreams. Awww, so young and so full of life you were. Now it's time for
you to take your place in heaven. Wait for me, brother, for you will be one of the
first people I look for when I arrive in heaven.

My thoughts and prayers go out to your family and all the friends of which you have definitely touched their lives and made a difference. I know I am a better person just having known you.

I love you, brother! Always! RIP!

MONICA, ISABELLA & ANGELICA

Leo, there’s so much to say, not enough time, so much regret, and now it’s too late. The shock of you being gone really throws me. You never really know what you’ve lost til it’s gone. I think to myself that if we would’ve stayed together, you would still be alive. You have such a beautiful daughter that is the spitting image of you. She acts like you and looks like you so much. I know that even if you are not here, I still got the best of you, a daily reminder of you in Isabel. Your hita thought the world of you, even though you guys were still getting to know each other. Angelica, who always considered you her dad, and I know you considered her your daughter, loves and misses you so much. All she talks about is our camping trips and all our fun weekend activities. Gosh I miss you. I miss being able to know and have the ability to talk to you whenever… I really took that for granted. What I wish I could do now is be able to see you, talk to you, and have you here with us. Lord knows you will always have that special place in my heart, and I’ll always love you.

LEO'S SECOND MOM

My Sweet-Hearted Leo:

I’m having such a difficult time putting words to paper to express to you how terribly sad and lost I am w/o you. My sorrow knows no end, my grief no limits, no stop to my never-ending tears.

You’ve always held a special place in my heart. I’ve always defined your place in my family as a big brother to my two sons, Jared and Wes.

Life has always been difficult for you, as for me. I never stopped believing in you and always prayed and hoped you would find your niche in life, something that you enjoyed that would bring you true happiness and contentment. You were taken from us far too soon, before you could realize your dreams, and I so despise those cowards that brought your life to such an end, but I TRULY believe that you are with our Lord in Heaven and have finally found the peace and happiness you so deserved.

I never realized just how many friends you had that truly loved you and will miss you. You touched so many people with your kindness and compassion.

Look down on us and help guide us thru the many levels of grief that are to come at the loss of losing you far too soon. “Rest in Peace My Little Leo.”

!!!!!! I LOVE YOU NOW AND FOR ALWAYS !!!!!

Your Auntie Trish
May 24, 2011

AMBER JARAMILLO

Wow....i still can't believe you're

gone...You were a wonderful amazing person and you brought a smile to my face everytime i heard your voice, got your text message, got your call or if i just thought of you or said your name..i was thrilled when we found eachother again in December after having lost contact over the years..20 years, wow can't believe we go back 20 years...We met when i was 15 and having you as my friend for this long meant alot to me..I loved when you used to pick up from school to go eat and to hang out we had so much fun together, I loved that old blue truck!!!! Everytime we saw each other the timing was always wrong for us but we always laughed and said that's just our luck!! If wasn't for the bad we wouldn't have had any! Leo, i've always loved you, you will always have a special place in my heart, it makes me sad that all i will have now is memories! You were supposed to take me out on the boat fishing!! What's gonna happen to my trip out there in June??? When i think of Florida, i will think of you always! You are in my heart forever, thanks for being a part of my life!!

The moment that you died
my heart was torn in two,
one side filled with heartache,
the other died with you.
I often lie awake at night,
when the world is fast asleep,
and take a walk down memory lane,
with tears upon my cheeks.
Remembering you is easy,
I do it everyday,
but missing you is heartache
that never goes away.
I hold you tightly within my heart
and there you will remain.
~Author Unknown
Amber Jaramillo

YOUR MOTHER'S TEARS

Oh, my son, if I could just have one more day with you, half a day, five minutes, just so I could hold you and let you know how very, very much I Ioved you and still do.  You will always be in my heart, but I want you here with me.  People say you're in a better place and maybe you are, but you are not here with me and the family that loved you sooo much.  Andy says "hey, get back here, you still owe me a couple of months on the electricity bill,” LOL... “and you still have to take care of the garden!"  I keep having these thoughts that you're going to call any minute to talk or ask me to go get you so you can come over and mow the lawn, or something else because you’re bored.

Now that you are gone, I keep thinking of all the times I let life get in the way when we should/could have been spending more time together.  I know these last couple of years were so very hard on you (with your back) but you were just getting on the upswing; back to work and finally getting your life back.

Oh, my son, my heart is breaking.  I miss you so.  Tell Johnny, my adopted son, that I said hi.  You guys watch over each other.  You had the biggest heart of anybody I have ever known, and I don't know how I am going to do it without you.

We will make your death mean something, my love, and never let life get in the way, as I did with you, and now too late realize what I have lost.  And, hopefully, we will realize the people we love are more important then anything else, and we just may not have the chance to say goodbye, so we’d better say hello and love and live while we can.  Love them when you have them, because there may never be another chance.

I love you, Son, and I'm lost without you.  I miss you so much, I can’t bear it.  How do I get through the next minute?

Mom 

One Life Given - One Life Taken

·         Oh my baby Leo.....damn it to hell for leaving us....damn it....damn it....DAMN IT.....don't you know what this is going to do to us?  I remember playing with you as if you were my doll....I use to put you in the little yellow tub and tie a rope around it and pull you around in the yard...damn it....son of a (^%$$^.....I hurt so bad...d..... Oh baby Leo, you had such a rough life, I'm so sorry. I want you back. Rest now baby....let their be peace in your heart.....put your mind at ease and just watch over all your loved ones from up above....I'M GOING TO MISS YOU BABY LEO.....Auntie Valentina. :(:(:(:(:(:(

·         I love this picture of you hito....I am so sorry I wasn't there for you more. One of the things I can say best about you is that you really did have a gentle heart and a soft spirit. You were a sweet man that only wished well for people a...nd YOU SO LOVED YOUR FAMILY....THERE WAS NOTHING YOU WOULDN'T DO FOR YOUR FAMILY. I MISS YOU SO MUCH...even though I didn't see you often, I know that I will never be able to hear your voice, write on you facebook page to stop cussing or ever touch you again. Oh baby....I'm so sorry life was so hard for you....but now you can just run into God's arms and have him hold you antime you want...ANYTIME. Watch over us from heaven...and when it's time for us to join you, I want you to meet me at the pearly white gates with open arms. I LOVE YOU MY BABY LEO!.....Auntie Valentina...you are in my heart forever.....I WANT YOU BACK. :( a...nd YOU SO LOVED YOUR FAMILY....THERE WAS NOTHING YOU WOULDN'T DO FOR YOUR FAMILY. I MISS YOU SO MUCH...even though I didn't see you often, I know that I will never be able to hear your voice, write on your Facebook page to stop cussing or ever touch you again.  Oh baby....I'm so sorry life was so hard for you....but now you can just run into God's arms and have him hold you any time you want...ANYTIME. Watch over us from heaven...and when it's time for us to join you, I want you to meet me at the pearly white gates with open arms. I LOVE YOU MY BABY LEO!.....Auntie Valentina...you are in my heart forever.....I WANT YOU BACK. :(

·         I am holding your heart close to me, hoping you can feel my love......my dear sister...I am so sorry.

·         Can you see me? Can you hear me? If you can, then you can see my tears, you can hear my cries for you and you can feel my heart breaking.....my love....why did you have to leave us so soon? Life was just about ready to start to look up for you....oh..baby Leo.

 Tears....Tears.....Tears.... :(

 Wow....its only been a week. It seems like months. The pain doesn't get lighter....it just gets stronger and heavier. I miss you so.  Auntie Valentina

PLANS AS WE KNOW THEM

Here is some basic information.

Our beloved Leo died Thursday, May 12, 2011.  Leo has been living in Fort Pierce, Florida, for the last 4-5 years.  Dianne, Leo’s Grandmother, Janet and Bob left Friday morning to Florida to be with his mom, Christine, and Andy.  Janet and Bob will be headed back to New Mexico on Friday.  Dianne will remain in Florida, and Patricia and Mike will drive out on May 27^th.  Leo’s cause of death is still under investigation since the toxicology report will take 6-8 weeks.  Christine signed the release papers this morning (5/17), and the body will be cremated no earlier than Friday, May 20^th.  It is important to Christine to take Leo’s ashes back to New Mexico so that the people, friends and family, who loved Leo can say goodbye to him.  The plan is to have a gathering in New Mexico by the end of June.  We would be honored if you all would join us.  Details will be posted as we finalize the plans.  

TO MY BIG COUSIN

It’s been a week since you left us and I still cannot find the words to express how hard loosing you is.  Growing up we were very close, but years and life changed that.  No matter how far apart we were I only ever wanted the best for you, for you to have a good life and be happy.  I pray that you knew you were and still are loved very much.  You were the firstborn out of all of us cousins, and it’s not fair that you were the first to leave.  I wish we could have you back and have a “do over.”  I would not take for granted the time I did have with you.  I hope you are at peace, worry and pain free, Leo.  As hard as this is, it is time to say goodbye for now until we meet again.  I love you with all my heart, and miss you dearly.  If you can, please watch over your mom and give her the strength she needs to get through loosing you……………. ;( ;( ;(

All my love,

Antoinette

POST & COMMENTS

I would like to make sure that you-all know that we will be happy to Post something for you on Leo's blog.  Please get to Antoinette, or Leona or Venessa what you wish to post, and I will do so ASAP.  But beyond that, down below each post is the word "comment," and if you point your mouse on that and click, a box will be brought up for your comments.  We hope you utilize this feature of Leo's Blog as much as you'd like because this will be the site Chris looks at and I'm sure that she will eventually want to read this.  I don't think she uses Facebook very much.

PJ

IN LIEU OF FLOWERS

Christine has asked that, in lieu of flowers, donations be made to the Leukemia & Lymphoma Society’s (LLS) New Mexico/El Paso Chapter in memory of Leo Gonzales and in honor of Kody Smith, his cousin, and Christine's godson. Kody will be participating in the annual Albuquerque Light the Night Walk, as he and/or his family have done every year since his diagnosis with leukemia at the age of 2 1/2. With your contribution to the Kody Smith Team, you are supporting LLS’ mission to cure leukemia, lymphoma, Hodgkin’s disease and myeloma, and to improving the quality of life of patients and their families. There are several ways you may choose to donate:

· Make a debit or credit card donation online: http://pages.lightthenight.org/nm/Albuquer11/KodySmithTeam

· Mail your donation (cash or check) to:

The Leukemia & Lymphoma Society

4600-A Montgomery Blvd. NE

Albuquerque, New Mexico 87109

Checks are to be made payable to “LLS” and, please, include “In memory of Leo Gonzales” and “In honor of Kody Smith” in the memo line. For cash, please include a note reading “In memory of Leo Gonzales” or “In honor of Kody Smith”.

· Call the L&L Society offices to make a debit or credit card donation over the phone at 505-872-0141.

GRANDMA & GODMOTHER

My Dear Dear Hito,

Did you know how much I loved you?

Did you? Did you really?

You were such a sweet loving child. You were such a gentle soul, my hito, and you loved your family so much.

I believe you are with our Lord and Savior, and you are no longer suffering, but I selfishly wish you were here with us, because the pain of losing you is sooo great, "the worst pain I've ever felt."

I wish I could hold you in my arms one more time, more than you can imagine. But know that you will forever live in my heart.

God Speed my Hito,

Gramma